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i wonder how come everybody seems to be getting the best out of their lives while i'm always...always stuck in mud? it's like they worked hard then they're able to achieve what they aspire to achieve...while this little me...no matter how hard i struggle...no matter how hard i try and try, i just can't break away....why? is this something that's written in His books? am i going to follow this path until the day i die? keep failing in life's challenges?
i think the problem lies within myself...maybe i haven't give 100+1% of my efforts...maybe by thinking pessimistically in the first place, i'm already a failure...maybe i'm too overconfident that the hard work that i put through was enough....maybe my thinking that as long you know you did your best it's enough that caused me to think that i've donoe my best and there's not much i can do already...maybe....maybe....maybe i should be seeing a psychologist soon....